Through the year my life has been down up and around again just a few times. all for the sake of making me a better man. A man that can live up to the expectations a Father as set forth for him. You see God has been shaping and molding me, not without some struggle, but I still accept it. I know it’s for the better. But some things are harder to move through. The details may change throughout my life, but the problems still remain. Until I learn to give it all away, I’ll just be reliving reruns in my life. Guess it’s been awhile since I felt this way….
Guess It’s been awhile since we last spoke,
Sometimes I need that reminder as to why I’m still here.
I attempt to speak the words but I always choke.
There’s gotta be a way to release this fear.
You tell me to wait and to be patient,
The time will come when it all makes sense.
But I want it now like your my agent.
Like I’m calling the shots, not suppose to be riding the fence.
I stand up straight and yell to the skies,
“This is my life I choose the time”.
Guess it’s been awhile…
Guess it’s been awhile since I felt this way…
Since I’ve felt so arrogant.
Like I could go back on all things you said.
Patience is the one thing I forget again and again.
Love is something you must learn over time,
From who better to learn than from the one who bled.
Watch over me with every wrong choice I make,
The vow to follow you I do solemnly take,
I’m confident you love me without mistake.